Hi Bill ...
My name is Bill too ... and I have been where you are.
It is scarey at first, but while you may at first feel like you are giving something up, you are actually gaining new fredom. Your friends will thank you. Your family will thank you.
For some, you will find, their stories are a very sad tale, littered with attempt to cover up what they were afraid to admit ... that they needed to stop this bad habbit ... once and for all.
I have been recovering now for two years. Still, to this day, I find I do things occasionally that remind me of my old ways.
Welcome to the growing group of people who have walked in your shoes. My you be comforted that you are not alone.